| Repost form myspace blog, no need to read it twice |
[17 Feb 2007|02:15am] |
King Midas in Reverse/Broken Bottles, Empty Hearts
yay, emo post!
many of you know I have been crushing on a certain lady (E.) and after our night out valentines I (being the nerdy nice guy I am) asked her to be more than just friends who go out. but, not to ruin the good time we had just had, I said, think about it and tell me later. well later came, and no suprise, I was "rejected" (quotes, cause rejection is such a loaded word, and that is not at all how I feel). Not only this, but yes, her and my good friend (R.) have become a "thing". the point? 1) some people ask me about my girlfriend, now you can stop that. 2) I am not mad at anybody, we are all mature adults here, no lieing or backstabing took place, and E has become a very close friend to me (I am very good at being close friends with hot girls, its a blessing and a curse, fer sure). 3). yea, I am little sad, but not suprised at all, i'll be ok, no need ot comment "sorry tom, blah blah blah". complaints, I have a few. 1). "not again" yea, you know it. 2) E. already has 1 best guy friend, D. I can really only ever be Vice D., she is a best friend guy hog!!! (hahahah kidding). 3) if I don't find a lady in 2 weeks, my co workers are gonna take me Hoggin' or try to fix me up with dudes, sreiously, I NEED your HELP Ladies!!!!! Now to all you Tysons out there who are gonna try to give me some speech about how I need to not be so nice, or whatever. I like who I am. I like the way my life is and the people I've met becasue I'm "too nice". yea it hurts my dating prospects and that can be a pain, but I can't and DONT WANT to change who I am, so don't tell me to! and secondly in this particular situation, I actually grew some balls. I've never been the Instigator of makin out, especially right after I met someone, yea, its true, I did, and it was nice (E.s a good kisser I tell you) and Ive never really taken a girl on a real date before, or even directy put forth the proposition of being more than friends (ususally just danced around it). so overall its been the best romantic relationship to date (kinda sad, I know, but whatever) (I just told my friend on Aim" R.'s gonna get his ass kicked", its funny to me) here is the convo:
tripmcnabb<..timestamp style="display: inline; font-size: 11px;"> (1:55:32 AM): Sup
Atomic7755<..timestamp style="display: inline; font-size: 11px;"> (1:56:19 AM): R.s gonna get his ass kicked, thats whats up!
tripmcnabb<..timestamp style="display: inline; font-size: 11px;"> (1:56:16 AM): Haaha
tripmcnabb<..timestamp style="display: inline; font-size: 11px;"> (1:56:24 AM): Whys
tripmcnabb<..timestamp style="display: inline; font-size: 11px;"> (1:56:36 AM): ?
Atomic7755<..timestamp style="display: inline; font-size: 11px;"> (1:56:58 AM): he stole my girls
tripmcnabb<..timestamp style="display: inline; font-size: 11px;"> (1:56:44 AM): Aigh
tripmcnabb<..timestamp style="display: inline; font-size: 11px;"> (1:56:49 AM): Bummer
Atomic7755<..timestamp style="display: inline; font-size: 11px;"> (1:57:16 AM): yea, that dick
Atomic7755<..timestamp style="display: inline; font-size: 11px;"> (1:57:22 AM): I thought he was my friend
tripmcnabb<..timestamp style="display: inline; font-size: 11px;"> (1:57:14 AM): Umm
tripmcnabb<..timestamp style="display: inline; font-size: 11px;"> (1:57:21 AM): I dunno dude
Atomic7755<..timestamp style="display: inline; font-size: 11px;"> (1:57:48 AM): kidding
tripmcnabb<..timestamp style="display: inline; font-size: 11px;"> (1:57:32 AM): Ok
funny.
in other news, the show tonight was AWESOME. Nard Voris is a cool local punk band. The Swellers where Super Sweet. I stayed on thier floor in Flint Michigan. now that I remember who they where, they are super cool dudes. charter north was rocking and rob having a cold made him sing gruffer and I liked it better..... oops
ok later fans, find me a girly so I don't have to go Hoggin' or get hooked up with dudes
Atomic
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| some things i been wanting to post |
[17 Jan 2007|04:07pm] |
Band names i have thought of or been in
"we are the walking dead" a tirade on those of us who never feel we are living up to our potential
maybe later....
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| how to question... |
[15 Jan 2007|04:05pm] |
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so i've learned that AXE shower gel is how dirty boys get clean (thanks TV for all the usefull info!), but how do clean boys get dirty?
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| and now back to our show.... |
[02 Jan 2007|02:34am] |
DAMN what a hell of a great weekend. it was sooooo fun I am concerned about how bad the rest of the month is gonna be... no but really. Friday in bloomington was a blast. 2.5 vodka cranberries a kamakazzie and some fluffy blue shot. rocking out to the Sleepers (we MUST have them in peoria soon!!). continuing rocking and singing with my favorite band SUPER 88!! and other goodness. got to see my old friend Hayley. great times! Saturdays party at the pizza works was better than I could have EVER hoped for or imagined! thank you sooo much to all the people who came out! thanks to dustins GF katie for running the jukebox and getting a dance party!?!?!?! going at the bar and to the ever enabling Emily for serving the drinks up just right. 1 Vodka Cranberie, a cheese cake shot and a red headed slut (not emily, stoopids) was all I could handle but sooo what it was a blast. we blew the fuse on the jukebox! ended up at richerds with dan H and clint k talking relationship and dating "science" (damn the science!). sunday new years party at dustins was cool. dancing, one screwdriver. Chris Mackey was my new years kiss?!?!?!?!? as well as other friends. the forcast played a short but fun set late in the night. it made me miss rock and roll a lot. mackey and I wanted to grab instuments and play. today was chill. went to One world with emily and her friends wes and dan...? watched HOUSE with cousin kevin.
tina and the killowatts are playing 2 seperate shows this weekend and if I am lucky El Camino De La Muerta will have its first practice!
Rock
Atomic!
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| my birthday plans, wanna come? |
[29 Dec 2006|05:36pm] |
tonight, Paulies in Bloomington for super88 and the Sleepers
tomorrow, pizza works at 9 then later to kelehers then richards
sunday dustins new years party, maybe elsewhere (there better be women!!!)
monday relax
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| christmass time goodness |
[23 Dec 2006|03:38am] |
today was the satterfield extended family exchange. it was very good.
at the show, jared gave me a sweet thee headcoats record! he is a very good friend. and they are a band I should own lots of and have none, until now! I am listening to it now. it is groovie!
tomorrow I will hang out with my old friend trisha and go out and around.
still looking for that mistress for christmass, prolly won't get it, but whateves
rock
atomic!
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| new years update |
[18 Dec 2006|01:49am] |
there will be no new years party at the saterfields this year. we are going to other parties. enjoy
dec 30th though, there will be some kinda event or group meeting up for my birthday.
atomic!
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| Christmas, my birfday, and new years! |
[11 Dec 2006|02:06am] |
The time is near! we have a tree here at grandmas/me and marshas place. it is very blue and getting me in the spirits. of coarse christmas will be family time, but what I want to know is, what is up for my birthday and new years?
here are my thoughts! Saturday night dec 30th we go to some bars and you all buy drinks for yoursevlves and I drink water and we have a party in the streets. then sunday night yall come to the satterfield haunted mansion in b town for the 6th? anual "girls with squirtguns"/Toms birthday partII/new years dance party!
coo, sounds good to me.
oh bring hunnies who wanna make out with me..
Atomic!
PS in all seriousness. I am having a bit of "let down/bitterness" over my aging. mostley in the realm of "where do I fit inness?" I feel like I am still 23, but hanging out with the type of folks I did when I was 23 can get annoying fast. when I hang out with the "old guys" I feel right, but not 29 by any means. when I think "nearing 30" I think more the type of person my cousin heather will be at 30, very career/couple of kidsy. this makes me cornfused and kinda bitter sometimes.
PPS mostly though I am quite happy with my life right now. some things could be better, but really nothing that can't be fixed relativly easily. just having some internal clowds of aging
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| my toes hurt |
[30 Nov 2006|12:44am] |
my life has the potential to turn upsidedown at a rate of about every 4 months right now. my boss says it keeps me on my toes, my toes hurt.
there are some changes a brewin, between work and rock mainly. big ones, if they happen. ends of eras for me and this town in some respects. the biggest part of my life since I left high school could be over before the spring comes. I could get a new position at work that I am not ready for. and the thing is, I am not feeling sad or happy about any of it. concerned perhaps, planning maybe, but not even nervous.... maybe the time has come.
in specific news. the killowatts are GOING to finish our new record over tysons winter break. Tina Sparkle has started recording our FIRST real Full length record last weekend. my sister and her mark man where home for the feastly times and it was great! and it seems to me I am getting the eye from complete stranger girls at bars and resturantes, especilay the last 24 hours. now, how does one approach a complete staranger at a bar or resturante that they have been smilling to, getting smilled at? this is new to me. should I post something on that craiglist missed connections thingy, that seems weird. and honestly I checked it out and it seems not too many people are doing anything on the peoria one anyway. peoria is soooo not cool enough for a list with a guys name online...
lame.
oh, I heard winter is gonna be here in the morning, yay (booooo!!)
atomic!
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| Eva Green Vs. Eliza Dushkue (sp?) |
[15 Nov 2006|12:58am] |
Eva Green wins with her sweet accent and is slightly better looking. I was not at all interested in the new 007 till I thought I saw Eliza D. in the background of a trailer, but wait, no she has an accent and is a little hotter.... is it? yes it is!!! Eva Green!! sweet, now I must see this movie. I recently became a fan of hers when we rented the Dreamers. a very good, and very odd movie. I became an instant fan. I hope she can acctually play more than one type of character though. I often fall for the pretty faces then realize thier acting is limited (Scarlet Johansen?) (hey I like talent AND looks, not just looks).
well as for me, I had a bit of a downer weekend. why you ask? because I had high expectations, thats why. (remember rule number 1 tom, don't get your hopes up! and of coarse rule number 2 don't talk about the things you want to go well, cause when they DO go bad, you won't have to expalin it to everybody!) the extra no goodness is that the watts played a super fun show in beloit rock college, and I didn't get to enjoy it like I wanted too as I was still dealing with the dissapointments of friday night. to day I am feeling better. I have little to no things really to look forward to (besides seeing my sissy laura on thanksgiving, and other holiday stuff) so I have nothing to get dissapointed by, but I am sure that will change soon enough and I will return to the cycle of hope and dissapointment. stoooopid girls and stoopid me for not being able to change the things that keep me single with lots of hotttt friends (anybody need help moving?... inside joke)
go see the ICC play vanishing points before it ends sunday, its good! and my friend Emily does a wonderful job in the lead!
night!
Atomic :(
heehee
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| halloweeny! |
[01 Nov 2006|02:01am] |
it was a good one. the old house in brimfield was well decorated. we had 140ish kids come by. the whole fam damnly was into it! we have fun Ideas to make next year better.
I like a girl, things seem to be going ok. we've gone out a few times. I read something that made me feel like giving up, but I didn't. I like her more everytime I see her. I am trying to give her space for her creative ventures, but I fear that if I hold out too much I will miss what little chance I may have. I also get all nervous around her and stop acting like my fun easygoing self (which is my most attractive quality I think). all of this is on my brain most of the time these days. my friends sometimes ask me about my "girlfriend" and I have to correct them as to not get rumors started that could inadvertantly make me look like a creepy lier. I am tired and am babling about nothing you want to hear about.
Atomic
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| good times |
[23 Oct 2006|12:57am] |
things seem to be going well for me right now. its a good feeling. good friends, good times. my drums look SWEEEEEEET! anybody wanting custome painted and pin striped drums, get ahold of christine Davis! I also had some contact with some far away friends this week that made me feel good about myself and some issues from the past. maybe been spending a little time with a lady who is radd, but Im not gonna say anything, cause I dont want to jinx it.....
the show saturday was good, but prooved that we have been playing too much at the works and not enough anywhere else. November we rock beloit, and hopefully macomb in early december. killowatts NEED to finish recording ASAP though. then we need to book a few money gigs at bars. then I need to focus my booking "out there" instead of round here. tina show friday will rock. we need to START recording so I can then follow through with that band also...
but for now, work is nice, halloween I hope to be excelent, and just enjoying the good there is around me. and trying to stay warm
Atomic!
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| the year of the weddings |
[19 Oct 2006|06:04pm] |
well it seems that the year of the weddings is comming to and end.
let me make a list
Steph from des moines. I did not attend this one casue I lost the invite while on tour and didn't find it till the night before. at that point I barley had a car let alone money to go to des moines all dressed up. I sent her a myspace message appologizing and never heard back. I can understand if she was pissed.
lizzy and Sean. it was fun, I WAS THE DANCE PARTY with help from drew, and the mackeys.
JW and Leah. I was late, but at least made the reception.
Joe Honald. he is my supervisor at work. he and I have run in the same circle for years but didn't get to know each other till I got my new job. I was not invited to this one, since it was a month after I got Hired, but I count it on the list
Amanda Kaufman. an old brimfield family friend. went to ames Iowa with marsha and mom. the brimfield friends where the dance party. there was a mechanical bull. turned out to be the funnest reception I have been to in years, much to my pleasent surprise
Dillon. Killowatts video/ Fly TV guy. I am on my way there tonight
Joe and Lacey. next saturday. the diomond in the crown. It is gonna be a costume party. my friends better have fun and dance to not hip hop, or I will unfriend them!
also, today I did something I should have done years ago, lets hope it doesn't ruin an old friendship.....
in other news, will I have a date this weekend? maybe.
Atomic!
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| Atomic Production Presents, a theatrical.... |
[18 Oct 2006|12:18am] |
so I have had this Idea for about a year and a half or more now. where a band I am in (I envision the killowatts since they are more "theatrical" then Tina Sparkle, and remind me more of bands like the Who and Kinks and, yes, Gren Day) would help write and score a theatrical "rock opera/play" and take it on the road, like a tour. well today I came up with a similar idea as a "warm up". Atomic Production Presents "An Odessey and Oracle" a Theatrical Interpretation of the Music of The Zombies. it would follow the album Odeessey and Oracle (my spelling is crummy folks), but would include many other amazing songs recorded by the Zombies. many cosider this album the third in the tripple crown of 60's albums that changed rock and roll, also including Sgt. Peppers Lonely Hearts Club and Pet Sounds, and recently I have discovered they are correct! most Zombies Songs follow the similar theme of love and especialy love lost, so putting a continuouse story into them would be easy. I already have some characters and story lines, but I am no wordsmith or story teller, so who wants in? haha! maybe pete townshend would be up for it.....
yup. otherwise things are well. I had a very nice weekend and got to hang out alot with people I want to hang out a lot with. my drums should be painted by the show this weekend (killowatts, G8B, Versifricators). its a masquerade costume party, so come dressed up!
k bye
Atomic
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| full moon weekend run down |
[09 Oct 2006|05:53pm] |
the mp3player is sweet
the bachlor party: my friends paid the 21st birthday party girl $5 to kiss me. I am still not sure if this is cool or lame. she was purty though, purty vacant. then off to Kappa, it was the first time I've been to a strip club with the friends i would be most likely to go to a strip club with, and it was cool.
Saturday was sleepy. played with my music machine. went to Pizza works for costume party. it was a small but fun group. some pics in my myspace comments.
yesterday was a depressy morning. then Nascar. then home for dinner (yay). then to chris davis for soup night and dropping of my drums. it was a fun gathering too.
whoo fun
Atomic
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| full moon weekender |
[06 Oct 2006|05:58pm] |
well i hoppe this weekend is all I hope it to be.
as soon as I am done here I go to buy my MP3 Player, then off to dillons bachlor party (kappa?)
then tomorrow fun with mp3 player, then over to the pizza works for costume party number 1. I hope some people come out in costume, since there is no show or DJ I think it might just be the 5 regular types in costume and a few extra drunks not. sunday we get some TS Tee shirt designs and I give my drums to chris D for painting.
hey Emily call me so maybe we can hang out outside of your job maybe
Rock
Atomic!
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| whats that they say about grabbing the bull by the horns? |
[03 Oct 2006|06:18pm] |
wow. for once my horoscope is right on. I have been really trying to get my self confidence up(back?). when I really think aobut the things that are bringign me down, I realize that the problem is my complete lack of balls. sheesh, if i could grow some grape nutts, I'd be better off....
I have been walking around worrying about girls and shit and I remembered that three months ago I had the nuts to just kiss a girl (I can't remember any other time where I was the initiator, it wasn't the smoothest thing in the world, but I did it) but since then I've been this little wuss, afraid of regection and "overstepping my bounds" man I need to kick this junior high/ high school baggage out of my head for good. that is taking the bull by the horns, and it ain't gonna be easy. i am a good looking, intelegent (except for spelling), creative 28 year old guy, I should have more then 5 dates and zero ex-girlfriends to look back on. but no, I keep letting fear stop me, witch makes me fuck shit up, witch in turn makes me more afraid of fuckin up, and it just compounds itself. Atomic Must destroy lil tommy satterfield for good! wish me luck...
Whoo........
so I have had some fun recently. went to the play at ICC, it was good. Emily got me in and was looking amazing. I thought I was dressed up, but nobody coulda kept up with that!! I then hung with the cast and crew at old chicago and then Elliots????? and now it looks like I will be attending a bachlor party for Dillon in Bloomington on friday that WILL end at a strip club. that will be 2 weeks in a row. strange.
allison got me a copy of the first subsonics record, I got some neat computer programs, joe got me some copies of the flashing lights records, and it looks like I will finally get an MP3 player this weekend. plus I am sanding the wood on my drums to be repainted and pinstriped with 60s MODgirl pinnups!!!!
bler....
Atomic!
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| I could rescue you, and you could rescue me too |
[28 Sep 2006|05:19pm] |
blah blah blah
I got that old down feeling right now. lots of things I want to happen last month still arent happening. maybe i need to be more assertive. maybe shes just not into me. maybe I think too much! Maybe its just Sesonal affect disorder (sad) cause its cooling off and the days are shorter
I need to get a new phone now. Im gonna maybe get my drums painted and I think it will be amazing when it is done. marsha and davin are recording vocals today and that is sweet.
whats up this weekend? i have some plans, but not enough to keep me occupied for the whole thing.
der
Atomic
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| hibernation time is upon us |
[22 Sep 2006|05:54pm] |
yes, that time of year when sleep sounds most fun. laying under the covers allll day, listening to chill music, or watching nascar in my PJS. cold nights (alone...wha wha...)
Rock show tonight yea, its all i realy have to keep me going in life
yay
but I am actually in a super happy mood right now so sweet, wierd
Atomic!
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| i have work buddies |
[20 Sep 2006|06:10pm] |
its been awhile sice I had a job where I met cool people, but I got one now. Brad, Joe, of coarse T Lane and I are a nerd work crew, its fun funnly fun!!
call me and we shouldl hang out, especialy hot ladies and sweet tits der.......
whatevs
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